regeneration

Every now and then, I get the feeling that I just want to start again, to discard all the baggage of my past and move on.

Done.

Today I backed up all my old blog entries here and at Blogsome, and deleted everything but the most recent entries. The Blogsome site is gone now (if you still haven’t updated your links, please do). I’m starting again in my life, and I decided that rather than holding on to my past, I would just let it go. There are plenty of good memories, but there are also some painful and silly memories that I’d rather not remember. Since I don’t have time to sort through the good from the bad, and I don’t want to bother, I just decided to start over again.

There’s still some lingering sadness in my life, most notably our financial situation, which despite all we’ve done, has not improved, and the need for a new job, which hasn’t yielded much fruit as of late.

Yet there’s also new hope. I feel that God is calling me to learn Japanese, and along with that will open up new possibilities, I’m sure. Since that’s the only concrete direction I have from Heaven at present, I’m going to go with that, because that’s something I can do. The rest…will have to be a miracle from God.